I'm going to show my favourite "old" pictues part 1:

 

 Heey girls!

Sorry it allready has been a month. College is great. Great people and great hours . But next week my paper have to be finished and in a couple of weeks we have 3 exams but that's oké .

But this month i have a really boring life i mean i go to school i go home and that's it,i just stay home all the time it's like everybody that i know always have to do stuff or are bussy with i don't know what.

Last Saturday i saw P. for exactly 30min. and i don't know why i was there(because he was also with other friends there)i mean it seemed i didn't existed only when i said i was going home (because it was sooo boring ofcourse)he said:don't you want to get a drink,but i said no. I mean i didn't care anymore. But i don't care for much stuff lately. And ofcourse my weight isn't going to help because i'm still thesame it's really hard to get back on track and in a couple of weeks it's almost December.

Oh yeah i now have al the seasons of Will & Grace (now i have something to do )

But i got to go!

-xxx-

She's soo beautifull!

 

Heey!

How is everybody doing?Me i'm fine not great but oké (oké that was weird ). Oh yeah sorry for the message for the challenge i thought that they were still looking for new people but it seems they have enough people.

Did anybody saw the movies the object of my affection?I had never seen it but i orderded it from a dvd shop because i couldn't found it anywhere. And i have to say it really resembles my situation only that i'm not pregnant or have a boyfriend or living with P. . But i so totally like the end because it is like it should be . And i really hope through this movie my brain will understand that i have to forget about P. I think i sometimes more listen to movies then to real people

Oh and yesterday A. came over(he was my best friend since i was 12 years old,and he's also the ex-boyfriend of P.)but this year i barely talked to him or see him. The last time was in the summer vacation we almost saw eachother everyday talking till 5am sometimes But when school started again it was different i mean the year before he was already not in my school anymore but this year he had again a new class because he did he's year over again. In the beginning it was hard but after awhile you get used to it especially because i had P. If i didn't had him it would be different.

He now said we have to see eatchother more, because he was sorry we didn't saw eatch other that much. He even responded my letter that i sended him(1 year ago, but still i'm glad he still responded :laughing).

You know it was very weird how we became friends:It was the first year of high school and we were sitting with our class outside,and i said that in the movies a lot of people just take there drinks and pour that on someons head. And i wanted to show him so i took my fanta and pour it over him. But i thought it was empty, but it wasn't . He wasn't pleased by that but still we became best friends.

On the letter that i sended him i wrote:"My love for you is like this scar,ugly but permanent".It's from Will & Grace, Grace is the one who said it(my favourite show,i'm Will and he's Grace).

And he wrote somethig of Friends said by Phoebe:"Love is sweet as summer showers, love is a wonderous work of art. But your love, oh your love,your love,... is like a giant pigeon crapping on my heart.la la la ooh!"

It's funny .But i think it's so cute. We only get sentimentel through letters or e-mail or msn or text messages we would never say these things to eathother in personal. But i think that's oké i mean me and he are not like that . But it's nice to know that you are loved by people and then i don't care how that it is said.

But if i have to be honest i have now a better friendship with P. then i used to have with A. I mean A and I had some good times but now i see that we have changed a bit to much. I mean he's still a good friend but it's different now.I have now a better friendship with P. and i only know him now for 2years. P. is more my Will.then A is. If you know what i mean.

Oké wow that was a lot.

Got to go!

Heey

Things are not that busy only i have now got a vacation job yay! totally not interesting but hey money is money.

Not much has happened beside that, only P. came by yesterday for 30minutes because he was in the neighbourhood. He texted me with the message if i was home, and i said yes i mean otherwise it would be kind of rude. But in the next 3weeks he's not going to be home so that works out just fine, because i don't really have to ignore him because he's not around. Finally some luck in my life .

And i will try to update 3times a week but now that it is vacation i don't really have things to wright about because there are not so much important things going on at the moment. When it was school i had everyday another complaint about something but now i have not.

Got to go!

Stay strong!

-xxx-